"Family"

 What is the meaning of that word anymore? Why would a mother choose one kid over another? I thought you weren't supposed to have favorites? I thought you stepped in when one kid was bashing the other one? If I bad mouthed my stupid sister, my mom would be like don't say that, don't talk shit about your sister. Lately it seems like mothers, and fathers, choose favorites. They pick either the oldest, or the youngest, lavish them with the gifts, and praise, and basically condemn the other. This is bullshit! I know someone who does this scenario. The youngest, doesn't do shit to deserve anything. The oldest basically put their self through school, and now is stepping out on their own. The parent is jealous, and hateful towards them. Why? You should be proud. Are you mad that you weren't able to do that yourself? You should not reward bad behavior, and you should not be jealous of your kid stepping out on their own.

 I know what it's like to have a sister, who gets a lot of attention. she would say the same about me as well. I guess in my situation it's all in how you look at it. I can absolutely say, I hate my sister. I always have. When she moved away from our house, it was a great time. I'm not saying I was a perfect angel, or I was the best younger brother. Actually, I was far from it. I acted out, I got in a lot of trouble, I screamed and yelled at my sister constantly. I couldn't stand her, she couldn't stand me. It just got worse as we got older. My mom never picked sides! She protected each of us when she needed to. If my mom was still alive, I have no clue how she would react to me, and my sister not talking for four years! I would hope she just stay neutral, but I don't know?

 I have been getting a lot of hits on my blogs, Why Do Assholes Prevail , and Why do people hold family in such high regards?. So I am gathering, a lot of people are going through this, or something similar. Why is this happening? Is it society that is changing? I don't know anymore. I used to think that family was the most important, then friends, then loves. Well now if you ask me, it's loves, and friends. Not family. They live their own lies. No that's not a typo, I said "lies". They believe in whatever kids better to them at the moment. and if you don't fit in, or they don't like something about you, they shun you. We spent Thanksgiving, with ourselves, and one of our close friends. We were the "outcasts", the unwanted people. But we made it the best Thanksgiving all three of us have had in a long, long time.

 So no, you don't need "family", you need only you, and it can be the best day, no matter what happens. Live your life how you want, with who ever you want. "Family" is just a word. It's not binding, it's not required. Your and my happiness is! This is a new year, and a fresh start. Let the "family" go on their own way, you go on yours. Don't feed into people's bullshit. And don't let someone else tell you how to live your life. There is no manual for life. Even if someone else lives their life a certain way, it doesn't mean you have to. don't take shit from assholes, that's "family" included.

New Years Resolutions.

So this will be my first post of 2012. I think it's only right to write about my new years resolutions. I know everyone comes up with resolutions, and some work, and some don't. I am one of those people too. I make them, then like a week or so later I break them. I try to come up with feasible, or obtainable goals, but I end up breaking them. Well I kinda started my new years resolutions last year, towards the end of the year. I'm not saying that it hasn't been hard, because it damn sure has been for me. So my top two resolutions were: lose some weight, and quit smoking. I actually have been losing some weight. I have been, with Melissa's help, controlling my portions, and not snacking as much. This has been really hard. I love food, and I love snacks. Chocolate, candy, just all that. Slowly but surely, I have been able to cut my portions, and snacks down. I am not starving myself either. I still do get snack and treats, just not as many as before. You can't just deprive yourself. It doesn't work. You will always be thinking about it. You can have a little of what you like. This has helped me, and Melissa.

A little portion is OK.

Now, on to smoking. I have smoked for 16 years. I have tried in the past couple of weeks to cut down, and then cut down, then quit all together. I have failed this a couple of times already. I have broke down and bought a pack or two, or three, and have smoked them like I use to, like a chimney. This is probably the hardest thing like this I have ever done. I do get mad, and disappointed in myself, but I have read a couple of articles saying slip ups will happen. I know other people feel the way I do when it comes to smoking. I just sometimes feel like I am the only one going through this. Or that this is only affecting me this bad. It feels like my body is being drained slowly of energy, concentration, just everything. I have read that this is normal, and other people feel this way. It is somewhat comforting to know that I'm not alone, but goddamn, is this hard. I cannot believe this tiny little thing has so much control over my body and mind. I am trying to go "cold turkey" people say that is a lot harder. I get that, I do. But my personality is all, or nothing. I can't just have a little bit, I need to have a lot.  I am trying and I am gonna try harder to do this. The longest I went with out smoking was, 72 hours. I am going to break my record.

I hope that maybe this give you some inspiration, or even if doesn't, know that you are not alone trying to fulfill your new years resolutions.

My Top 11, in 2011.

My wife Melissa, came up with this awesome idea. Your top 11 things for 2011. We are a couple days away from 2012. I do try and reflect back and see how the year panned out for me. Now you can go on this journey too. 2011, had some really bad times, and really good times for me. I grew up, and grew wiser, but I also kinda feel beat up. Especially with all the stuff that happened with my friends. Well 2012 is a new start, a new beginning for me, and I am ready for it.

This list is in no particular order. I hope you enjoy a look back on at least a part of my year.

Number 11. My new Christmas tradition. The advent calendar.

Number 10. My top Cellphone Thursday pic. No, of course I couldn't just pic one ha ha.

Number 9. My top picture's. These are actually Melissa's picture's, but I just love them.

Make A Wish.

World Trade Center steel from the 9-11 Memorial.

Number 8. My favorite TV show. Sons of Guns.

Number 7. (I don't know what to call this) Lindsay Lohan Playboy.

Image is owned by Playboy, Hugh Hefner, and Lindsay Lohan.

Number 6. My top songs.
Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks, Dubstep Remix.
Korn, featuring Skrillex - Get Up!

Number 5. My top video games. Both extremely good games in my opinion Battlefield 3, kicks major ass with the new Frostbite 2 engine.

Number 4. The best holiday for us this year. Thanksgiving

Number 3. My favorite Movies.

Number 2. My favorite day. When we got our new cats.

And finally my number 1. This was an amazing feat for us to accomplish. I am very proud of us and I know we will have many more to come. Our first year wedding anniversary.

Honorable mentions.
My favorite board game of the year. Apples to Apples. It is really fun. You should try it.

Cellphone pic Thursday 12-29-11

Bellevue's take on Christmas decorating.

Well it is after Christmas and now it's the countdown to the new year. I had an excellent Christmas with my wife Melissa. We had an amazing day of our own. New traditions, and the feeling we can do this as our own family. I hope you had a good Christmas also.

I wanted to post this picture awhile ago, but I never had the opportunity to take a good picture of it until now. Better late then never ha ha. Bellevue is like the "rich" city here. I drive through it often for work.

It is really cool to see it look like this.

Don't forget to get your Louis Vuitton, for Christmas next year.

Christmas weekend!

Well here it is. It's Christmas weekend! I am very, very excited. I cannot wait to see the joy and smiles on peoples face when they open a gift that they have been asking for. I really hope that everyone has a good weekend, and most of all a great Christmas.

Even Santa is enjoying some R&R before the big day.

It's not only about gifts or what material thing you give people. It's the time spent with them, it's the coming together to enjoy the day for what it is. You don't have to give someone something to make their day. You can give them companionship, you can spend time with them. I think sometimes people forget what Christmas is all about. I am just going to try and enjoy the day for spending time with people I care about the most.

Well Merry Christmas, Feliz Navidad, Happy Hanukkah. Enjoy the day in your own special day. I know I will. 

Cellphone pic Thursday 12-22-11